It’s been way too long since I’ve posted anything, and so here I am giving some updates. I’ve been in flux for the past few months. Most of this is due to my job and the changes that have been going on there. I’ve come to accept that I need to find a new position, so I have been looking for things both inside and outside of my organization.
Although I’ve been stressed about this, I also see it as an opportunity for me to do something I actually enjoy, and possibly move somewhere new. I’ve been relying heavily on my yoga practice to keep my mind at ease, and it has been extremely helpful. I am also planning on starting a yoga teacher training course in January, so I’m looking forward to that.
Overall I’m feeling hopeful about the changes that will be occurring over the next few months, and I’m proud of myself for learning how to cope with my stress in a positive way as opposed to what I would have handled it five years ago. Back then I would have been stressed out, not told anyone about my job situation, and drank to cope. I would have thought this is the worse thing that could happen to me, and thrown myself a pity party.
Luckily I no longer deal with stress by ignoring a situation and drinking to forget about it. I know that whatever’s meant to happen next in my life is out of my control, so all I can do is enjoy the ride.
Happy Holidays, and here’s to an exciting new chapter in 2018!
Last week was extremely stressful. I had a very busy week at work, and had to be out of the house and on the road by 5 am 2 days in a row. I also felt guilty about leaving my new dog-Francois aka Frankie at home for an extended period of time, even though I had a dog walker take him out during the day. The kicker was when I got home Friday after a long day and there was a note under my door from my neighbor complaining about Frankie’s barking.
I thought Frankie wasn’t barking as much, but apparently that wasn’t the case. I honestly felt horrible, as I would be very annoyed if I was hearing a dog bark at 6 in the morning. The difference in how I dealt with this now, as opposed to how Drunk Lisa would have dealt with this situation was not lost on me. I went to yoga Friday night, which helped take away much of the work stress I was feeling and also helped calm my nerves over my dog’s issues. I then ran into my neighbor and spoke with him and his girlfriend about the situation. I told them how sorry I was, and they were very understanding about it since they also have a dog. I also explained that I was enrolling Frankie in an obedience program, and was also going to purchase a anti-barking collar.
Drunk Lisa would have just been mad, and drank over her annoyance with the work situation, and also the fact that she was unlucky enough to have a dog that barks. It is so interesting to be able to take a step back from situations now and realize, yes this might be stressful, but it can be dealt with, and hopefully resolved.
I’m still dealing with the stress of Frankie’s barking as the collar I bought is not working, but I’m taking other steps to try to resolve the situation. I also addressed the work issue with my counterpart and explained to him my issue with not being included on the updates of an account we are both working on. He understood, and I also spoke candidly with my supervisor about the issue, and she shared my complaint with her supervisor who is working on resolving the issue.
It’s somewhat freeing to know I did everything I could in both situations instead of just shutting down and feeling sorry for myself and turning to alcohol as an outlet. I think that’s one of the most gratifying things about recovery-knowing that I’ve done my part to resolve problems, and being able to move on from them.