It’s been a while since I posted, but overall things have been good. I had a wonderful summer and was able to travel to many nice places, most recently Maine with my family. While I was there, the topic of my blog came up, and although I casually mentioned that I created a blog to my mom, I never told her the name of it. When I shared the name of it, and explained it was because people used to refer to me as Drunk Lisa in college she was extremely upset.
I knew this would be the case, hence why I never told her about it. I now know that Drunk Lisa was a past version of myself that I have moved on from, but I’m still ashamed that I acted in a way that people called me that for such a long time. I am also ashamed that even though my mom understands that alcohol is a disease, she still seems to think that there is something she could have done to prevent me from becoming an alcoholic.
I know this is not the case, and all I can do now is be my best self by staying sober. Even though I’ve been sober for 4 years, there are still things that I’m very ashamed of doing during my active addiction. These reminders will never go away, but they’re actually a great way to stay sober as they remind me what I can turn into if I do drink again.