Well, it’s official. I’ve been sober for four years. Something I never thought possible four years ago when I was at the lowest point of my life in a psych ward in Florida. Looking back I can’t even believe that was me, and I’m so happy to say that I’m no longer that same addicted, crazy person.
Although the past four years have been challenging and scary, I honestly can’t believe how much better my life is, and how much more comfortable and confident I am as a person. I still struggle with my sobriety at times, but it is nothing like it was during my first year of sobriety. When things are good, I’m thankful for every moment I have in my new found freedom called sobriety, but I also don’t take it for granted. I know at any point something can arise that may challenge my sobriety. This is just the reality of living with addiction.
That was probably the hardest thing for me to come to terms with over the past four years. Although I’m doing well now, my struggle to stay sober will never stop. My addiction is part of me, and it will always be lurking in the background, waiting to strike when I least expect it. I will continue to have to be true to myself no matter what, and maintain my sobriety through a recovery community and a healthy lifestyle. Today this is second nature, but I’ve worked very hard to get here.